Of What May Come..

i'm in love. yup. very much .
i'm in love with the present.
everything seems well.
i'm happy, you're happy and everyone is.
i'm having fun. enjoying your company like never before.
we talked. we laughed. we jokes around.
i never expected it but yeah. it happen.
you are nothing like i thought you were.
you're better.
you're the other version of me. the man version.
you like the same things that i like.
you do the same things that i do.
i wish for nothing more.

BUT....
i have this thing about happiness. they don't usually last long and it scares me.
scared.
indeed i am.
scared of what's gonna come. how my life might end and what the future might bring.

"suka-suka membawa duka"

the phrase me and my girls use whenever we laugh  too much or when we were on top of the world. i don't know.. probably helps to get us back to reality.

ahh reality. mood kill.

am refusing the fact that i do realise that you have no interest in me besides being friend.
am refusing the fact that you won't love me.
am refusing the fact that you're just like a brother i wish i had.

someday i'll accept em. someday.
just let me live, love and cherish this moment.
as i know, the present won't ever repeat itself.


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