Alia's

What am i doing? Being so freaking emotional over unnecessary things. I don't get myself. Contain yourself sister. You're messing with your own head. You did this to yourself. Retard. Stop this nonsense right at this second. Stop

Yes. I get you . Clear sign . I should stop . Good luck. You deserve it . I should stop being a kid . Grow up alia. Fact is a fact . And there's nothing i can do bout it. Reality hurts. But it's better if i accept it now. Now or never. Be strong dearself. I need my girls. You guys are so far away from me ..... (/´Д｀)/

5 am and i'm up. This is a rare situation as starting this semester i always end up waking up at 8 am. Just few minutes before work. And considering it's weekend this is a moment to celebrate Ye━━━━(ﾟ∀ﾟ)━━━━s!! Okay lameeee~~~ *sigh* Tak habis habis mengeluh . I should stop worrying and start living . Why should i waste my time thinking of it ..? Right? Right? Yeah. Typical and alia her sudden depression . Same old same old.

Oh come on. I can sense depression kicking in . Refuse to do my work tonight. Although i did talk myself out into doing em tonight. TONIGHT! You have plans tomorrow. Class at night and we have to freaking submit it on sunday !! It's all because of that. *sigh* Alia. Please... You have to control yourself. Stop acting like a freaking child. You're an adult now. This shouldn't be bothering you. Grow up man . Be a lady. Ignore every disturbance. You have a goal. Achieve it man. Stop being such a cry baby. You're way way way way better than this ! If it's meant to be. It's meant to be .... (´･ω･`)

i'm in love. yup. very much . i'm in love with the present. everything seems well. i'm happy, you're happy and everyone is. i'm having fun. enjoying your company like never before. we talked. we laughed. we jokes around. i never expected it but yeah. it happen. you are nothing like i thought you were. you're better. you're the other version of me. the man version. you like the same things that i like. you do the same things that i do. i wish for nothing more. BUT.... i have this thing about happiness. they don't usually last long and it scares me. scared. indeed i am. scared of what's gonna come. how my life might end and what the future might bring. "suka-suka membawa duka" the phrase me and my girls use whenever we laugh  too much or when we were on top of the world. i don't know.. probably helps to get us back to reality. ahh reality. mood kill. am refusing the fact that i do realise that you have no intere...