Alia's

am i? or, did i..? or,,,, should i..? yes it's my decision but i can't seem to accept it myself.. now i felt like a fool.. keep on thinking bout it.. but i can't figure out my solution.. oh come on.. it's not like you don't know me.. act please.. again and again.. if you're being persuasive, i have no choice but to agree with you.. but now.. you're acting less care and you let me decide.. how cruel and dumb is that..? i'm bad at making choices and i never get anything right.. please.. fix this.. let's get to the way before! this s@#t making depressed!

yes! i am at the office..  lalalalalala.. totally not in the mood or feeling like doing cad and sketch up.. duh... they're bored.. huhu.. sorry ayah :D guys.. i lost my smile these days..  my sun didn't shine and i feel like living in the dark.. it's the same feeling when your house suddenly blackout while there's  thunder and rain pouring heavily outside..  and worse,,,, you're alone at the back! plus.. the squeaking sound came from your ceiling..!  the BUMMM the BAMMM when the wind hit your windows..  aih.. pretty scary huh..? and pathetic enough..  well.. that's what i felt these days..  it seems like i didn't get everything right.. it's all wrong.. and i'm going down the earth alone ..  no more girls and friends to call.. no more sport to help me ease my depression..  and i can't afford to eat a lot as my weight might kill me...  oh well.. that's what life is about.. you'll get hurt.. and that will be your best teacher :...

tak semua yang kau rancang berlaku.. mungkin nasib tak menyebelahi aku.. entah mengapa engkau yang aku cinta.. mungkin lebih baik kau ku lepas saja.. hanya kesakitan yang ku hadiahkan pada mu.. kau tak pernah cuba memahami aku.. dan bila saat ku kehilangan... bebanku tak pernah kau cuba ringankan.. dan aku memang penakut.. setiap masalah cuba ku elakkan.. tidak ku selesaikan.. aku manusia lemah.. selalu terjatuh.. berbeda aku darimu.. kau berdiri teguh.. aku serba tiada.. aku kekurangan.. dan bila kau tiba.. aku hilang dari kewujudan... kekuatan ku lesap.. kerana aku hanya bergantung pada mu... aku lupa pada kekuatan diri ku sendiri.. when i'm nervous.. i have this feeling that i talk to much.. i need to talk it out.. to someone who listen.. and at that time.. that someone wasn't meant to be you.. but i never meant to hurt you.. just trying to find inner peace that could help me get a grip of myself.. i guess you never understand that.. you ...

SHOES.. they came in different sizes.. different designs.. different durability.. various colours.. different in every aspect.. so does people and personality .. we are unique.. we are special.. and yes.. we are DIFFERENT.. differ from others.. and it's not something bad.. in fact.. that's your speciality.. who cares about others. you have you.. in your deepest sorrow.. no one can understand you.. no one can comfort you..... don't give up.. you always have you.. that 'you' is your heart and mind.. those two might argue a lot.. but, when you need them.. both of them will help.. they co-operate and give you the best solution ever! trust them.. Allah created mind and heart as the two strongest thing ever.. control your mind and your heart will follow.. be strong.. no worries.. there's always rainbow after hurricane :')

yuhuu..! adesh! it's been a while isn't it..? huh! been busy.. well i am.. busy driving around! hehe.. i went to Besut last few days.. with my dearest friends.. DBEK, IRAH and YUNI! we plan to stay overnight at Cg Kz's house.. yes.. we have a great time!:) first thing first... we went to our college .. nothing much.. met few of the teachers.. chatting.. lunch together... afterwards.. we headed to the beach.. of course there's photo shooting! OMG! the beach was beautiful! serene.. calm.. awesome! oh yeah credited to a friend :p .............................................................................. at night.. we went out to buy durians! yeah! thankfully, the stall has mangoesten! yeah! and cikgu was generous enough to buy 3 kilos.. hehehe.. i finished all of them.. i've gone crazy for em that night! and sadly.. we didn't finished the durians.. and cikgu kinda pissed off.. hehe.. 1001 apologies!!! and MILLION THANKS ...

hehe.. been saving this post for 3 days! okay people it was awesome.. i repeat.. AWESOME! the ending.. the final! ouh how great it was.. to those who haven't watch it... go.. now.. move your butt to the cinema!!! :D as a fan.. that was a perfect closure.. that's the end of it guys.. the end of Harry Potter.. well.. it was great.. from the Sorcerer's Stone - the Chamber of Secrets - the Prisoner of Azkaban - the Goblet of Fire - the Order of Phoneix - the Half Blood Prince to Deathly Hallows..! now.. the series has meet it ends.. ouh.. no more waiting for any awesome sequel now.. or ... there might be one for Iron Man or Sorcerer Apprentice or Transformer or... haha.. i have lots of favourite movies! :D and Draco Malfoy (Tom Felton) was so handsome! don't bother if Emma Watson has a crush on him cause i do too!! p/s : i didn't have my full concentration on that movie thanks to Alan and a lady next to me who doesn't know what QUITE mean in th...

Assalamualaikum... salam nisfu syaaban everyone..:) Alhamdulillah... thanks to ALLAH i had been given another chance to celebrate syaaban.. :) tonight.. is a night full of blessing after lailatul qadar.. even Rasulullah himself did not sleep and stay awake to perform his prayers.. so.. why should us..? hehe.... well... i know i am spending my time blogging.. but.. that's the least i can do.. spread about tonight.. :) take your time doing your ibadah everyone.. :)

senyum.. tak perlu kata apa apa ~ a song by umm.. dunno.. haha.. I'm tired of smiling and listening to crap things.. AND.. I'm tired of keeping my thoughts to my own.. I'm not the frank type who say it out loud.. As far as i'm concern, i still watched my mouth before i led out any words out.. once i read.. If saying something will make one's day better.. say it.. if that something can put one's day in grief. keep it to yourself.. ~sort of something like this :D i hold on to those words.. well, sometimes.. eventually my mouth can be quite evil under certain circumstances... i send you my regrets and appologies if that happen :D these days.. my family members are facing troubles.. fine, everybody has their own problems and it's good if they tried to resolved it.. but i HATE IT! i tell you again.. I HATED IT when they keep on talking about it. look.. when you were talking about something.. part of you might exaggerate a bit.. from telling a...

John F. Kennedy once said ~ a nation that is afraid to let its people judge the truth and falsehood in an open market is a nation that is afraid of its people. * * * Well that explain everything..; No Peace Demonstration..?? No Blogging on sensitive issues..?? No television channel for the opposition side..?? As an 18 years old.. i'm bored with news that only shows one side. and worse of all.. buka aib orang.. ea hello.. nak jaga periuk nasi sampai buruk kan orang..? adoi.. kesian lah kat orang tu..dah banyak mana dia susah.. tuu pulak bukan dia saja yang kena.. keluarga dia pon kena tempiasnya.. apa perasaan kita kalau kita yang diaibkan macam tu? mungkin takde perasaan lah tu.. fikirkan diri sendiri je.. dah bosanlah macam ni.. semua aktiviti orang nampak jahat.. semua yang dia buat nampak baik. baik sangat ke..? nak main badminton pon nak dia je menang. baik tak yah lawan kan..? ambil je lah trofi dan hadiah tu awal awal lagi.. engr...

translate that in malay people.. :D to those who join the rally i salute you! jail is nothing.. Anwar spend half of his life in there.. and when he's out.. he's unstoppable! get my point? :D look.. what did you guys did is a total awesome.. all you want is a clean election.. and the way 'they' treat you pretty much shows that they don't want it.. so.. think people.... what do you actually want from your government..? isn't these just a simple request from us..? your citizen.. isn't that what you supposed to do? care for us more than you care for your wealth? where can wealth bring you in the after life? play fair.. that's the aim of BERSIH.. who are you fooling? even teenagers these days have gone against you.. please... on behalf of Malaysian.. SHOW US SOME JUSTICE.. we're tired of you faking everything..

Bismillahirahmanirrahim... "Allahumabariklana....." a prayer said before we eat.. give thanks to ALLAH for the food... "Subhanallazi sakharalana..." a prayer said when we got on a transportation.. give thanks to ALLAH for the blessing of transport.. in daily life.. Islam teach us to say our pray and hope for blessing from our lord ALLAH.. and most importantly.. it's a way of showing your gratitude to ALLAH and a sign that you remember HIM.. ALLAH knows everything about us inside out.. no use of hiding and no use of cheating.. our life... starting from scratch have been recorded by two angles Raqib and Atit.. Raqib stays at our right side shoulder writing every goods we've done.. while Atit stays at our left side shoulder writing every bad we've done.. in the after life.. on the judgement day.. everything will be sort out and measured in front of ALLAH.. it will decide where we'll be.. in the heaven or hell.... hearing these st...

YUP.. I CHANGED IT.. for some heart-breaking reasons.. my life had been tumbling upside down because of this blog.. i hurt someone with what i said (wrote).. i opened up myself to someone i don't intend to. to my followers and readers.. i love you guys.. 21 people is a big number for me.. ~ i still envy syakir :P but i do miss his posts.. he stopped for now.. busy i guess..? new URL and new blog tittle..(it's on my TWITTER, secret lah sangat :P) maybe a perfect plan to hide for now, let's keep it down.. :) CHILL MAN! p/s : i would love to start posting some serious issues .. i hope i don't got caught for that :D